Summer is here,

Hot days, warm nights, and cold hearts. Since the beginning of summer I have lost a fiance, Gained a job, lost a job, started school, met someone new, and made a couple of good friends. My now ex-fiance keeps fucking with me for no reason at all. I really don't understand why. It makes my life ever more unbearable. Working at Safeway kept my mind off of her but I started doing drugs again. Ecstasy started to become a problem and I started smoking weed on a regular basis. I don't mind the smoking weed part too much because it helps me sleep but the harder stuff I did like coke I always knew was a bad idea but I couldn't help myself because I thought about how good it made me feel. I fucked up Safeway though, but in the end it was worth it. I met ashley at BFD and I had a pretty good time connecting with someone new and gaining a good friend. I start EMS school on July 7th so im pretty excited to do that and start a career as an EMT-Basic and eventually work with CDF or ODF. I want to do something with my life where people will remember my name. I don't want to be just another crook or just make it by. I want a life not an existence. I met this really nice girl. Though she is a little younger then me I think she is hellof pretty. I don't know if i am going to pursue it or not but I guess I will see where it goes.